Private blog of: Radiya Aqilah Irdina Nurania
Society established: June 2008
Place of meet: Pasir Ris Primary School
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Thursday, May 13, 2010
You knw i've been thinking. Alot of unexpected people can be your best/close friends. If I didn't meet you guys i wonder how it'll be now. I remembered one time I cried in class. Although Radiya and Dina wasn't close to me they tried to comfort me. This touched me alot. I guess strangers too can make your day. A simple compliment, a caring act. I didn't knw that I'll turn out this way more outgoing i guess :/ I'm glad tht i brought out the courage to talk to you the first time cause you all looked damn cool and i was afraid you'd think that i was being retard :x haha. I wish I'd have knwn you guys earlier... I'd wish tht we didnt have any fights. But its normal i guess. My phone's been taken away but really i dont see a difference I dont sms anyway. haha. well, if anything lets write letters it'll be damn cool. to feel the anticipation if receiving a letter! AHAH. I guess i'll be writing loadss. WE.NEED.TO.CATCH.UP.
I miss you too :( Yknow when we were in p6, we dont have to pretend and stuffs but things changed. :(
I havent been keeping in touch with both of you. Sorry. Its not that I had forgotten abt out clique. I miss old times. We were all care-free. sigh.
ANW, lets change to a happy mood for awhile. AQILAH WHY YOU LIKE SUJU? SuJu have ugly ppl yknow. HEHEH.I like DBSK and SHINee.
Okaylah. There's so much to say actually. But I shall stop here. Hehe.
Heyyy. Radiya, I feel the same too. I always have to think before I tell my friends something afraid that they'll judge me and watsoever. Primary schl shapes our lives but i guess its our secondary schl that hardens it :/ You knw I was very depressed last year at the beginning cause i was scared that i wouldn't have any friends cause you were at the good schls and what would my friends think of me? But now I don't regret coming to this schl cause of the people here :D But as you say no matter how they crap ard with us we arnt able to be who we really are. At times I wish you guys were still with me. Somehow I wish tht we knew each other ealier :/ Kayyy i shall belajar nauuu.
Well, I was having breakfast just now when I remembered this conversation my mom and I had when I was about twelve. I asked my mom who her best friends were, and she said she didn't have any, most of her friends were just good friends. I remember finding this hard to believe because well, I had you guys to laugh with and talk crap. I didn't have to put on a mask, I could tell y'all about anything and everything because you guys weren't judgemental. I mean, you guys were my best friends and it was kind of hard imagining not having any best friends, y'know?
Two years down the road, I don't think what my mom said was unbelievable anymore. In school, I do have good friends, people I can laugh with and talk crap. But somehow, I can't express myself the way I did when I was around you guys. There's something different about the way I connect with my friends here, maybe because there's a reputation I have to uphold. Maybe it's different now, maybe there are more complicated feelings to express. Nonetheless, I want you to know that I really really appreciate and treasure the friendship we had, because now I realise that it was a rare kind of friendship. (:
But like the saying goes, all good things come to an end. I'm not saying we're ending our friendship, but you have to admit, we are drifting apart. Or maybe I I hardly ever talk to any of you anymore. We say "meet up soon okay!", but have you realised how long it's been since the four of us have met up?
I could blame my schedule, I could blame the distance. But then, I realise that there's actually nothing to blame. We're all just growing up, we're finding our own identities, we're trying to fit in more than 24 hours in our own schedules, we're spending time with friends. (: Maybe we have changed a lot since primary school (even though I think I haven't, I'm the same old pessimist) and found who we truly are; maybe we're finding all the crap we talked about lame and immature back then, or we simply don't have the same ideas and inside jokes to continue them. Though people change, memories stay. So I'll hold on to those memories because I realised that they were what made me, Me.
Monday, May 17, 2010